by Deborah Haggard (art by Savannah Richardson)<\/strong><\/p>\n Perhaps you now live in a different world that I can\u2019t reach because it\u2019s a speck of dust. Maybe that\u2019s what my world is too. A little piece of dust that you don\u2019t exist in any longer. Maybe the universe is just made up of dust and you\u2019re somewhere else and that\u2019s why I can\u2019t reach you.<\/p>\n If that\u2019s true, does that mean when I die I\u2019ll get to join you in the world that you exist in or would I be in a completely different galaxy of dust, never to see you again?<\/p>\n I hope that when my time here is done we\u2019ll meet again. That would be nice.<\/p>\n The woman gently sat down, her daughter\u2019s journal in her hand, keeping the page marked by her thumb, gazing at the sleeping teen with sorrow.<\/p>\n Her sweet daughter had been quiet as of late. She had worried that the girl was falling into a depression, which could still be likely, but she could see now that her daughter had been attempting to cope with the loss they both had suffered through silence.<\/p>\n Her daughter was attempting to make sense of the senseless.<\/p>\n The mother scanned the entry again, grimly smiling at how reading her daughter\u2019s journal led her no closer to helping the girl come back from the anguish that began months ago.<\/p>\n A cry from the bed had the mother looking up at her daughter, seeing that her features were troubled by dreams. Something the mother knew all too well, for it was one of many reasons for her being in the young girl\u2019s room so late at night.<\/p>\n The woman smoothed her hand over the child\u2019s hair, thinking of him, and if a few tears passed while comforting her sleeping daughter, no one need know.<\/p>\n She continued to smooth her hand through the young girl\u2019s hair, mindless now of the comfort she was offering. She thought of the loneliness she felt trapped in, wishing many impossible ideas.<\/p>\n She thought further of what her daughter had written. To contemplate death and the afterlife seemed such large topics for so young a girl, but the mother understood that death is what her daughter could only think of since it permeated everything now. School, home, friends, sleep, and especially the relationship they had with each other. Death seemed to be the only sense to be recognized due to the constant ache.<\/p>\n The young mother, so perturbed by her thoughts, had slackened her hands, one resting on the crown of her daughter\u2019s head and the other relaxing just enough to have the journal fall to the hardwood floor with a clatter. She winced at the noise, picked the journal up from the floor, closing it and pressing her hand over the cover. The mother startled, realizing she wasn\u2019t the only one awake anymore. She turned towards the girl, seeing the sleepy confused look her daughter gave her, \u201cSweetie, I\u2026yes. I read your journal. I\u2019m sorry, I shouldn\u2019t have.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWhy did you do it then?\u201d the girl asked, sitting up and beginning to rub the sleep out of her eyes,<\/p>\n \u201c\u2026I couldn\u2019t sleep\u2026 and I was worried about you. About how you\u2019re dealing with da-\u2026about how you\u2019re dealing. I saw your journal and thought it might give me clues on how to help.\u201d the mother replied, taking time to note that her daughter didn\u2019t look particularly angry by the intrusion of privacy.<\/p>\n The girl went silent for a moment, looking down at her lap where her hands rested, cupped into one another, noting how they seemed to trademark grief, as if her whole being could not escape loss.<\/p>\n \u201cWell?\u201d the child whispered down at her grief-soaked hands,<\/p>\n \u201cI still don\u2019t know\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n The young mother placed the journal on the covers of her daughter\u2019s bed, taking the time to sit in silence, also noticing but not sharing the insight that her hands too seemed to carry grief within each weathered line.<\/p>\n The girl felt no words come. She didn\u2019t know how to convey what she felt, what she didn\u2019t want to feel, only that it seemed to swallow her whole and she didn\u2019t know if she would be able to surface from the bleakness.<\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019m tired mom, I\u2019m going to go back to sleep. You should too. It\u2019s late\u201d came quietly through the chasm of small space between mother and daughter,<\/p>\n \u201cYes, that\u2019s a good idea\u201d the mother stood up, looking back at her daughter, \u201cNight sweetie. I love you.\u201d she stated, trying to convey everything within those small words and when that wasn\u2019t enough, touched the child\u2019s cheek and silently left.<\/p>\n The teen slowly laid herself back into her mattress and pillows, allowing them to encompass her and thought about the journal lying next to her. She thought about the dust, she thought about who now resided there in another speck of dust, but not her own and how much she wished for the dust that composed of her world to collide with the dust that now composed of his new world.<\/p>\n Tears slipped silently down the heart shaped face, the light from the bedside lamp catching each new path created or renewed by the salt. Words were forming on her lips, she could feel them bubble up from her throat,<\/p>\n \u201cI hope the dust knows how magnificent you were to me because I still can\u2019t fathom what it means to exist in a place where you don\u2019t\u201d<\/p>\n Outside the young girl\u2019s room, a mother slid to the floor, grief trailing down her face, knowing that her heart reflected that of her daughter\u2019s. 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\n\u201cMom? What are you- is that my journ-Did you read my journal?\u201d<\/p>\n